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Cleaning update: nearly completed folding of the laundry (I have a couple more baskets to go so yay me), cleaned the bathroom (minus the tub, did mop the floor at least), cleaned OUT the couch, and vacuumed the living room. Managed to break a light fixture for my new living room ceiling fan I don't have up yet (which it is way past return date so I'm going to see if I can superglue it back together otherwise meh) - it's about right, I've broken at least three dishes within the last couple months (my Captain America & Sailor Moon cup and a bowl). I need to work on cleaning my room, getting the spare bed dusted/cleaned, laundry put away, and vacuuming the rest of the house. I'd also like to get the gardening beds put together ideally but that is backburner right now. I'd also like to re-organize my books and clean out the storage room. I also need to clean out my car.

So this weekend, other than cleaning, my brother came over and worked a bit more on the office floor - apparently it needs more floor leveler so he couldn't start that part (which fair, I never did end up painting anyway). He started me on watching Star Wars: Clone Wars show since I enjoyed the Maul show. Except early seasons animation was not great, so I don't know if I'll watch more of it without him. I don't know why but I just enjoy Star Trek stuff more? Maybe I just need to be in the mood for animated stuff.

So I updated Capes & Crusaders TCG today, only did a couple decks - but I had the idea last week to start a Make a Deck option at the community, so I got some rules/guidelines up for it - haven't started making what I have YET, but hopefully the concept works. *shrugs* I did end up returning to a "Monthly Theme" concept - except this one, since it's consisting of Pride, Spider-Man, and Supergirl is going to last until the end of August.

No writing this weekend, but I do think I'm going to pass on the

unconventionalcourtship this year - I just can't find one that I want to try, or I get sorta close but meh. It does inspire me to want to work on my X-Men Pairing & Prompt Generator - I'm planning on making a MCU one and a DC Comics one - the plan for writers to be inspired of different pairings for xmen100, mcu100 and now dc100.

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In case you missed it:

dc100

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taking Supergirl (ANY UNIVERSE!)-related prompts for Supergirl Summer Prompt Meme at

supergirl_tv

galorechallenge Round 14 ends June 30th... if we get any takers.

flareonfury

6/7/26 Note: So this post should have been posted May 31st, but instead, basically a week later since my computer did a weird freezing thing for the internet. So while I lost a little more writing on the original post, I did manage to screenshot what was originally written - so that's what you guys get here.

Welp, ending this month with a lot more icons being made than writing again. I have kind of a busy schedule for the month of June, so I'm not sure exactly how much I'll be around, but I do want to make a few posts in June (I've been wanting to talk about the latest books, films and shows I've been watching) here and some drabbles/fics (I seem to keep getting distracted by iconing instead of writing, lol).

Anyway, I signed up for

marvel_bang - I haven't quite decided exactly what I'm going to do for it - either I'm starting the long awaited sequel to Falling Slowly (XME, Rogue/Scott), working on the WIP Hearts & Souls (MCU/TASM, Darcy/Steve, Tony/Pepper, Peggy, Howard/Maria, Peter/Gwen, Mary) that I haven't touched in years, or starting a brand new Rogue/Scott or MCU related work. I'm leaning towards the Hearts & Souls mostly because that one is at least started - I think I need to see the original movie again for inspiration, that might help me write more. I don't know though, because Wanda has been inspiring me a lot more lately, so who knows.

I do want to do a

unconventionalcourtship but I can't find a summary that intrigues me enough to write for it yet - sign ups close June 10 so I still have some time to look for something. I really want to do a Kara/Maxwell (Arrowverse) fic for it though. I also tentatively signed up for

launchtheship for Batman/Joker/Lois (Harley Quinn animated series) and Bucky/Kate/Yelena (MCU) - but there are a few other Marvel ships that don't have anything that I've found.

Okay so besides wanting to get more writing done this month, I also want to work on more decks for Capes & Crusaders TCG. I got distracted (lmao again), by making icons otherwise I'd have completed a couple decks today (I have images for Aquaman's Lorena Marquez and started saving image hunting for Batman Beyond's Aquagirl & Big Barda). If saving images wasn't so annoying anymore, it would get done faster (I hate when I go to save an image and it tries to save it as anything but what it is - I don't know who THAT was a good idea but fuck them). I did at least put up the previous Pride header in honor of Pride Month (minus the original purple background). I did pay attention that I could do at least a deck within an hour (maybe more) depending on if I have images or not. It's when I have to go looking for images I get lost and become distracted or down a rabbit hole and find mismatched images (for example I went looking for Rachel/Betsy & Betsy/Warren images, ended up getting scattered images of Betsy with Beast, Cyclops, Nightcrawler, Storm, and Emma as well). I'm thinking of kind of doing a Make a Deck challenge at the community, where I'd make cards out of the images I have and ask members for help/donations to fill in the rest - that might be best? I do miss character/ship fansites so much though - they used to help so much.

So anyway the reason why I'll be busy in June, will be because my aunt will be visiting from June 13th-June 20th (or maybe a little less? she said she has to leave early for a party). So I'm not sure how much time I'll get to be on the computer doing that period of time. Also my friend who moved to Colorado will be here for a few days as well (I told her she was welcomed anytime and because something another one her friends is dealing with, she came to the east coast). So what THAT all means - I have to actually clean clean my house. I don't know if it's a mixture of anxiety/depression or some other mental disorder (or just how I was raised) but doing chores are a struggle for me so I usually do the bare minimum, but I can usually motivate myself to clean when "company" is coming a lot more than normal, especially now after working 10+ hours a day. Started doing all the laundry baskets that I've been avoiding this weekend, so I should be current by next weekend. I need to check out

bitesizedcleaning for tricks/inspiration.

Also new community alert!

dc100 similar to of course

mcu100 and

xmen100, just encompasses ANY DC universe.

Also in case you missed it:

taking Supergirl-related prompts for Supergirl Summer Prompt Meme at

supergirl_tv

thisbluespirit

Before I had the cold (which is not entirely over, but is much better now) I had a few things I was going to put into a post. They are now extremely random, mostly belated, and not equal, so apologies for a motley post, but I did want to note:

1.

beccadg is having a lot of health issues and has a GoFundMe.

2. I saw two posts about Small Prophets, one talking about the influence of all the stopmotion children's animation in it, and another person saying that whatever you'd call the exact inverse of English folk horror, that's what Mackenzie Crook's work is. All of which smashed together in my head to make me go: OMG, he made Bagpuss for adults! (I mean, it's not, but also it is. And Bagpuss is also some sort of exact inverse of 70s folk horror, too. Artisanal children's TV in terms of being literally crafted by hand and its simple but beautiful storytelling structure.)

3. Before I got too ill to do such radical things as watch TV on my PC again, I managed to actually watch ep1 of Miami Medical (with Jeremy Northam and Lana Parrilla), and discovered that when you watch a full ep instead of just Lana clips, what's up with Jeremy Northam's accent is much clearer, in that it was never meant to be a US accent, just that his character had been working in Maryland for 10 years and the "I'm from Maryland, as you can tell by the accent" was actually ironic. Someone calls him "Mr Tea and Biscuits" in the next scene. (Most of the eps are there. Hopefully I shall be able to watch them sometime and all will become clearer than the random Lana snippets.)

4.

sovay pointed me to uploaded episodes of The Expert on YouTube, including 2 from 1971 that I had managed to miss featured... James Maxwell! \o/ I was even too ill to manage watching this on my tablet for ages, too.

In true JM form he was very nervy and awkward and also unfortunately too gentle and unmanly to survive a small push in the 1970s. Alas. He is such a delicate 6"3 baritone flower, lol. He fell over in the beginning of part 2 and next thing I knew they were doing an autopsy on him and now I'm too worried about where this is going to watch the rest (yet). (The channel also seems to have a lot of rare stuff - this is a never released on DVD or repeated item, so they must have a collection of their own, presumably.)

5. Bookending this, Michael Keating, better known to me as Vila from Blake's 7 died when I was too numbed from the cold to really comment on it - and then yesterday, the news broke about Anthony Head, too, and I was very sad to hear both & both by all accounts, lovely people too. Michael had apparently had dementia for some years and after B7 worked mainly in theatre, and also got very into rambling, but he didn't need to do more TV to leave an impact: Vila was iconic, someone he made a very likeable and relatable figure in the midst of all the rebels vs. Federation struggles. I'm watching Sesskasays react to B7 for the first time and, in these early stages, Vila is her favourite. Mine too. I love all the characters, and adored Jacqeline as Servalan, but Vila is my favourite. He's the 'small man' archetype out of a fantasy story, living in a snarky fascist space universe. How could he not be?

I was late to the party with Buffy (although I remember watching the Gold Blend ads as a child!) but as a newbie librarian, I borrowed the VHS tapes from our library, and Giles was of course immediately my favourite, and then Anthony Head was always marvellous in everything. I hadn't dreamed we weren't going to get a few more years yet of unexpected bonus ASH in random TV or radio. He was in DW (audio and visual), Jonathan Creek's pilot, Cabin Pressure, but 3 things other than Giles I'll remember him for, particularly:- his first TV appearance in Enemy at the Door, where he played the Martels' son Clive, trapped on the island after a misguided raid by the British army goes wrong; an outstanding performance in s1 of Spooks, where he played Tom Quinn's mentor, jaded and screwed up, in a tragic crash-and-burn guest turn (N.B. warning for all the things, this is Spooks); and at the other end of the scale, being absolutely marvellous and hilarious every episode of 5 series of Bleak Expectations as the villainous Mr Gently Benevolent, whether exercising his trademark evil laugh, reincarnated as a pigeon, reformed, unreformed, or cheeseboarding Pip (with a break for tea and biscuits). It got me through a rough summer in 2013. Washing up badly is not the same as washing up evilly.

grimmrow

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Current Music: be with you - muse

grimmrow

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Current Music: Never call me - Jhene Aiko

oldestcharm

I realise this is my own doing but writing a crossover fic for a rarepair that only a handful people read is so disheartening. Not because I am not enjoying it, I absolutely am. But you will have even less comments than usual, and delightfully, every new one turns out to be a bot or a scam. I used to have all my works archive locked, but I figured I'd give this one more range. Instead I get these:

( Miserable Wankers )

It's even worse that with ones like the second, you're just thinking "Is this spam?" immediately, and then be proven right when you try to give them grace. I guess I'm back to archive locking my work, then. At least I have one comment from an actual user, though I hear they too may be suspect. It's just shitty how it ruins your entire day.

Current Mood: crushed
Current Location: the black chair
Current Music: mick jagger & dave stewart - old habits die hard

oldestcharm

Got out of hospital on Monday as promised. Time flies too quickly, and I'm barely catching up. So, two things, before I talk about something beautiful I meant to speak of a while ago:

Gallstones typically rank between 8 and 10 on 0-10 pain scale.
Exams tomorrow.

A few weeks ago I visited Kirna Manor while they had their yearly Tulip Festival on. It was raining that day, so I got the exact sort of romantic melancholy I was craving for, but it did not compare to last year, which I unfortunately missed. I did get to see the pictures, and they were devastating. Their garden also has spots that are meant to heal you, if you believe in that sort of thing. And if you don't, nature is nature. But here are mine:

( Kirna Manor )

Current Mood: pensive
Current Location: the black chair
Current Music: tartu uus teater - minagi olin arkaadia teel

oldestcharm

Ära hõiska enne õhtut is a saying in Estonian, which essentially translates to do not cheer before the night is over. I did figure I was a bit too content with life, so fate had to throw a wrench in it.

I'm at hospital. Truthfully, this is good, because at least someone competent is dealing with my health issues now. The lady doctor who examined me last night was baffled when I told her I'd been in indescribable pain for the past two weeks, barely slept or ate (threw up most of it), and that my GP's response to all that was to prescribe me more medication. As though I am not on enough already.

I still don't know what is wrong, because they have to wait until Monday to do a full examination. Small town problems, I suppose, but it's better here than my home, because I already know this hospital, and also I got a room for myself. In the meantime, they put me on the drip and fed me whatever mysterious liquids in comically large needles. They are all truly sensible about it and extremely kind, so I have nothing to complain about. I'm feeling a little better too. The nausea and the pain haven't disappeared entirely, but it is very much on the lower side of the scale. The fever is gone for now too.

I've never had so much bread in my life. Truly, a hospital classic around these parts. They also made me an entire pot of chamomile tea and they had kefir and cottage cheese, which is the only thing I haven't had issues with these past few months. That, and broccoli.

They gave me these adorable green plaid pyjamas and fuzzy red slippers, and it makes me so happy, because these are my favourite colours. How did they know?

Mu mum brought me my stuff, including the phone charger and my notebook, so now I can write without being worry. I even managed 1.3k words today, which I personally think is very impressive. She also brought me my ancient Kindle, so I can read, no matter how slow it is. Tomorrow will be much the same. They told me to sleep, so I'll be doing that now.

Drifting into the arena of the unwell, indeed.

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Location: the hospital
Current Music: the ringing in my ears

kat_lair

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I have not had a this level of a gleeful reaction to a trailer in a while :D OMG STUART!!

Watch on YouTube

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oldestcharm

I've been absent from here for a while, but I now find time again to write and participate in comms. It has been a stressful year, but I am, once again, graduating. I seem to be speedrunning schools these days, collecting fancy papers.

I've got a job offer at the ready and my dad offered me a free place to stay in the city where I will be working. I did my internship for school there in March, so I already know the building and most of the team. When I wrote to them, they said my timing is excellent, because one of the employees is just leaving and they will need a replacement. They've invested a month in training me, and I've even done the onboarding course.

I still have exams on the fifth of June, but I highly doubt I will flunk them. I'm not worried in the slightest, which is usually how it goes. I tend to get frustrated by wildly different things.

This leaves the graduation ceremony. That one is a bit more exhausting to think about, because you need to look at least somewhat put together. I considered wearing the dress I graduated in two years ago. But that would be too easy. Thanks to whatever it is that is wrong with me, my weight keeps fluctuating, I cannot fucking eat anything, and I've lost 15 kg since then. Admittedly, a lot of the weight loss was intentional as I'm trying to get healthy again, and I am currently one kilogram away from being "normal" weight on the BMI scale. I know there are issues with that, but I do feel like I've put in a lot of effort, and I am proud of it. If I have to deal with other health issues, at least my weight will not be a hindrance or a distraction in trying to figure it out.

Anyway, I have this red dress. I've never worn it before, and it is not the best red dress I've ever had, but it is still impressive. I also have red shoes I once bought because they reminded me of the ones Audrey Horne had in Twin Peaks (see my icon!), and I couldn't help myself. They work reasonably well together. I brought the shoes to a cobbler to replace the heel tips, and he was really excited to see how bright they were. I love this man. He told me last time when I went there with my Oxfords that they were a lost cause. If I wanted to wear them again I should do so between 12 AM and 3 AM, but only if I make sure the streetlights are dim. He made it sound as though I was about to summon a demon. Good man.

And so, I have plenty of time in June to wind down, rejuvenate, and focus on creative work. I imagine I will also have more time even with my job, because the schedule tends to be unpredictable with 3-4 days off between 3-4 day shifts. Despite my anxiety about not quite knowing what to do with my life, I think I'll be fine. I'll have the time and income to take some classes, and more importantly, I will have time to focus on art, writing and gardening. Small things, but ones that improve your life. The only thing that still worries me are the health problems, but I may still find a way to alleviate them.

Current Mood: restless
Current Location: the countryside (we've gone on holiday by mistake!)
Current Music: a storm outside, and the ticking of the clock

grimmrow

I could have had a free nintendo ship for the cost of shipping it to me and an iphone 16 as well but I ended up spending my money on things I needed instead. I feel momumentally stupid for it. I should have just paid the 35 dollars for it. Instead I bought a memory card for my nintendo switch lite, hopefully I can get my games back and play them again. I miss playing my video games. I'll have to get resident evil 0, 1, RE4 OG and RE6 as well. All the Final Fantasies again too.

I failed my g.e.d math test the other night, I rescheduled for the test again and I should pass this time. I'm learning how to use the calculator better. It's not that difficult, but sometimes I can't come to the correct conclusion. Let's hope I can get the correct conclusions during the test. I already studied all night long, I just gotta study before 12 A.M tomorrow.

My mom bought me an exercise machine for my legs, I've been steadily exercising every night since she dropped it off on the 17th. My legs are stronger already. It'll be two months before I'm standing without struggling and three months before i take my first step, but in two months I'll be up to an hour a day using the machine. I appreciate my mother so much despite the fact that it's her fault i can't walk. I'd get into that but I won't. I'm able to put my legs up for lon g periods of time now.

I'll be living in my own home by December or January. I just don't know where in Ohio I want to live. I'm thinking Cleveland, Ohio despite the fact that I won't have any family around. But then in Columbus we have a lot of gay community like stonewell and such. I'm talking to this woman named Cheli, she's a beautiful translady. I think she's serious about us becoming more and I'd like to be there for her journey into transitioning. I'll be transitioning myself as well here shortly. I'll start taking T as soon as I'm walking again.

I'm thinking of shaving my head again, I'm considering it as soon as my mom shows up again. I have a razor for head shaving. I might have the stylist at this facility do my hair instead. Then dye it blonde with violet tips. The condition of my hair is poor however, I need to take better care of it but that starts with shaving my head. Yeah, I'm shaving it.

Anyway, here's to hoping I pass my test tomorrow night. I can't wait to go to college. I said I would have my g.e.d by the 29th, Let's hope I'm right. i know I pass, I have a better grasp of the calculator now. I should get at least a 156. Which is a passing grade. :D

I love you flist and I hope you're doing well. Here's to a better tomorrow and a wonderful yesterday.

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